Beats me

I am going to the doctor today. I am going to talk to her about what I think is depression. It's time to get help. I fought with Tyler yesterday, of course. I also think it's time I distanced myself from him, though I love him dearly, our friendship is toxic. I have been pushing away all the friends that care for me a great deal, and have been pushing for me to get help, and get happy. I have been clinging to those like Tyler, who allow me to walk tall for months, until everything around me finally brings me to my knees, I have a breakdown of sorts, and the next morning, I act as if it's all okay. Tye lets me pretend, whether it's because he doesn't much care, or if it's because he thinks that is what I need, I am not sure.
On another note, have you seen this seasons Chanel? I am not impressed, Karl Lagerfeld, what happened? I feel like we've seen all of that before... Did anyone see Vogues tribute to Alexander McQueen, it was quite lovely.