I'm stuck so deep in my head that I don't even know who's really here and who's leaving. I hate everyone lately, I don't want to talk to anyone, the mere thought of spending time with people annoys me. I am an unpleasant bitch lately. I have a nervous energy coursing through my blood. I am nauseous every morning, the taste of toothpaste and coffee makes me gag. It is now that I wish I had something profound to say, some deep emotion to express, but I do not. 3 billion other people have felt this way, and if they haven't yet, they will.
I have decided I will rent a room in the house Jillian rents from. I imagine there will be collaborative dinner efforts, and some wine nights. Most importantly, it will keep the crushing loneliness that so often creeps into my soul at bay. At least for a time, I seem to be perpetually lonely, no matter where I am, or who I'm with. Just one of my ridiculous quirks I guess.
Tyler called this morning, he was two hours late for work, because he drank all night. I worry that he isn't responsible enough to live on his own, on one hand I trust him to make all the right choices, but on the other, he keeps letting me down. With luck, I wont have to fix his messes in the city, with fantastic luck, he won't make any messes. His charisma is overwhelming at times, and he has a good heart, and is much smarter than he gives himself credit for, he will be fine. Let's just cross our fingers he doesn't worry me right to death.
On a lighter note, I bought the most fabulous yellow wool coat yesterday, it is my favorite item of clothing this week.
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